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Growing up she heard about the end times
But they never felt so close
If showing love could make you a criminal
And wearing your own clothesShe got up, went to school
As if it wasn’t burning down
She looked at her friend, said with a smirk
I guess we’re illegal nowWhat was it about her heart that scared those men so much
Queer kid, where you gonna live now
Good kid, always getting kicked out
Of every place you’re not safe
To be just who you areComing up she knew about the balance
That it was hard to get it right
A kind defense or a patient fist
And safety in the fightBut overnight the whole world was changing
Just like a tape stuck in reverse
But if you have a good heart and a little mascara
You can push back on the curseSo with her girlfriend on her arm she marched into the light
Queer kid, where you gonna live now
Good kid, always getting kicked out
Of every place you’re not safe
To be just who you are
Brave kid, only you define you
But hey kid, we’re right behind you
So make your way, say your name
And show em who you areEven the President’s treating you like a bad step-dad
Thinking everything that makes you different makes him look bad
And maybe there's a law, squeeze you so tight
Make you hate your body, give up the fight and just die
Why don't they call it what it is
Wholesale gendercide aimed right at the kids
While their own holy book says love your enemies
And all the little children, let em come unto me
Meanwhile they’re so busy changing all the rules
Building up the kingdom using all the devil’s tools
They forgot the way history’ll show just what they did
By then there’ll be green grass growing on the grave of that queer kidQueer kid, where you gonna live now
Good kid, always getting kicked out
Of every place you’re not safe
To be just who you are
Brave kid, only you define you
So hey kid, we’re right behind you
So make your way, say your name
And show em who you areHey kid, where you gonna live now
Good kid, always getting kicked out
Of every place you’re not safe
To be just who you are
Queer kid, don’t you turn the shine
down
Good kid, always getting kicked out
So make your way, say your name
And show em who you are -
Going out’s like a war zone
I hope everybody comes home
You never know which neighbor’s gonna turn on you
You can’t judge em by a flag ‘cause if you doOh, it’s the pot and the kettle black
What’s the difference when the attack is at your door
And your body is your one defense
You gotta draw away the fire from your friendsAnd it’s just so easy to see
When you look at me
Oh, I can read that energy
And your secret’s written on your face
And all it takes is a little bit of nail polishSo I’m a worst-case futurist
Whether language or with a fist
I always say the best threats self-identify
When you know a trick that always draws the eyeAnd, it’s just so easy to see
When you look at me
Oh, I can read that energy
And your secret’s written on your face
And all it takes is a little bit of nail polishAnd like a prize fight
You try and win it in the ring, oh
You could wind up dead
‘Cause any ally or decent father knows
You know you gotta plan ahead
And be brave and pick a shade
And always be the first one through the doorOh, it’s just so easy to see
When you look at me
Oh, I can read that energy
(Your secret’s out)
Oh, it’s just so easy to see
When you look at me
Oh, I can read that energy
(You’re not safe, now)
Oh, it’s just so easy to see
When you look at me
Oh, I can feel that energy
And your secret’s written on your face
And all it takes is a little bit of nail polish -
It does not require bravery
To face the world as I am
Between assumption and reality
I’m an ordinary manBut, I see you weighing life and death
Every day in your skin
You’re just fighting for integrity
The outside matching what’s withinAnd I’m with you in the fight
But my heart can’t bear to count the costsFor you to stay safe out in the open
I want you free but I need you alive
You gotta stay safe wherever you’re going
If I just can’t be by your sideAs you dance upon the razor wire
Still beautiful by any name
Oh, don’t be fearful of that dizzy height
But watch your footing just the same‘Cause in your body politic
Just breathing in and out is like an act of warSo please stay safe out in the open
I want you free but I need you alive
You gotta stay safe wherever you’re going
If I just can’t be by your sideI could never love you more than this
Whether a daughter or a son
‘Cause you’re ten times the man I’ll ever be
As the woman you’ve becomeBut could you stay safe out in the open
I want you free but I need you alive
You gotta stay safe wherever you’re going
If I just can’t be by your side -
I could not have imagined I could wake up with the sun
These days I’m taking coffee orders
Long before my friends on the east side are waking upEven 18 months ago the colors all were gray
Warring with my family and all the words I had
To try and say who I wasI had to cut my way free
And thank god a friend knew just what to say to meI was there too, it won’t be this way forever
Some wounds are emotional, you don’t have to cover up
But sometimes scars are as literal as ransom notes
And they always show up and down your arms‘Cause there’s a cost that must be paid
To tear down these walls you built just to keep you safeAnd I was there too, it won’t be this way forever
ForeverThe conditions of love
In the calligraphy of pain
You had to write it all down
So you’d never be the sameYou may not have noticed me
Oh, we all look the same
When you’re feeling the weight of the world
Barely thirteen and fighting for your life everydayBut when you paid for your coffee
Oh, your shirt sleeve got pushed up
Probably nobody noticed just before you pulled it down
And your cheeks got flushed
But on your faceOh, I saw in you what I knew in me
And I risked a note tucked in your coffee sleeveIt said, I was there too, it won’t be this way forever
Oh, I was there too, it won’t be this way forever
Forever -
We made a deal, we don’t apologize for feeling our feelings
But hammer to knee, it comes as no surprise
Our feet start kicking
And fists clinch like ones used to hit back at unsafe lovers
Haunted by every broken heartBaby, I know it scares the shit out of you
It scares the shit out of me
After all that we’ve done
And all that we know
The muscle memory
Asking to be believed
Just asking to be trusted
And to trust and believeIt’s crazy the way one day we agonize over water dripping
The next day a flood swallows up our whole lives and we’re skinny-dipping
Bound up and free, mourning dove song
A crazy knowing of things true and ever meant to beBaby, I know it scares the shit out of you
It scares the shit out of me
After all that we’ve done
And all that we know
The muscle memory
Asking to be believed
Just asking to be trusted
And to trust and believeHoney, we don’t need the box top if we are the puzzle pieces
God knows how perfectly we fitBut trust me, I know it scares the shit out of you
It scares the shit out of me, too
After all that we’ve done
And all that we know
The muscle memory
Asking to be believed
Just asking to be trusted
And to trust and believe -
If you need a mother
I will be your mother
TransloveDo you need a father
You could be a daughter
Of transloveYou don’t need a cover
You’re a worthy lover
In transloveAbove you, below you
Before you, behind you
With you and for you
Sola transloveCould you use a brother
Do you need another
TransloveHe could be your sister
We could heal the fissure
TransloveYou don’t need insurance
Fear of jurisprudence
In transloveAbove you, below you
Before you, behind you
In and around you
Sola transloveYou don’t need approval
There is no removal
From transloveYou don’t need a savior
You were born in favor
In transloveNo need to believe it
No prayer to receive it
Translove -
This world was never meant to hold you
It does not recognize your face
It twists and it tries to control you
In one and one there is no shadeSo you speak in other tongues
March to every drum they’re beating to hide in view
But sometimes you forget
And nearly break your neck, the whiplash is killing you
‘Cause you don’t feel safe
Unless you stay in your placeWhen kisses are turned into weapons
You’re not safe in your own bed
The politics of love and self-acceptance
Too many voices in your headMeanwhile some politicians
Who never even met you tell you you don’t exist
Even though unlike the so-called
God they say condemns you, well there’s proof of it
‘Cause here you are showing up
To a life those men could not survive even a day
Oh, if they were in your placeNow traveling the lines of liberation
It’s hard to know how far you’ve come
How scars could be an inspiration
For everything you could becomeSurviving with a hope
Thriving with a chosen family surrounding you
Oh, you may not see it now, but
Everyone who’s gone before you is living proof
Oh, you can be like them
‘Cause they’ve all been in your placeYou’re not alone in your place
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Headlines scream and voices fly like sling and stone
The hate they wield, a sharpened knife
It cuts the hope
They twist the truth, they spread the fear to hide the lie
When the world feels dark and the path unclear
You realize
Child, this may be the time to close your eyesImagination banned for all the books you’ve read
They misdirect with trigger words
And bullet breath
The news reports a broken song of rights denied
They build their walls around your heart
In crooked lines
Child, this may be the time to close your eyesThe preachers rage, the pundits sneer, a war of words
They twist religion, make it hate
They lock the doors
Their moral high ground planted flags, their martyr’s cries
They judge and scorn and fail to see
The rainbow skies
Child, this may be the time to close your eyesBut listen softly for the sound, the burning fuse
Igniting painters, activists
Prophets bringing news
Of families, stories, hearts and minds opening wide
The hopes of all the painted bruises
RealizedOf all god’s children’s thriving lives
May this be the day
Of husbands, husbands, wives and wives
May this be the day
When beauty’s beauty and love is love
May this be the day
Thank god you’re safe and you’re enough
May this be the dayWhen all the faceless hear their names
Let this be the night
When all the shapeless rest in frames
Let this be the night
When all the tears are wiped away
Let this be the night
When all true justice falls like rain
Let this be the night
Oh child, this may be the time, open up your eyesOpen up your eyes
Open up your eyes
Open up your eyes -
You are enough
Your power is as unlimited as your imagination
You are wise
You are not alone
You are becoming, forever becoming, you are always becoming
Focus on the thing and people that bring you joy
Show up with your whole self, if you do not you are withholding a gift from the world
I’m so proud of you
You are so brave to be authentic in a world that demands conformity
And that is your path out of suffering and into joyKeep breathing in and out
You are who you say you are
The world needs you
You matter
Your are an embodiment of possibility
There is nothing wrong with you
You’ve done it in the past, you can do it again now
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
You are loved
Produced, recorded & mixed by Derek Webb
Additional vocals by Abbie Parker
Mastered by TW Walsh
All songs written by Derek Webb, ©2025 Derek Webb Music (ASCAP)
Admin. by Music Services. All rights reserved.
Art Direction by Derek Webb & Emily Tingley (emilytingley.com)
Back cover artwork by Ash Webb
Voices of affirmation: Allan Heinberg, Flamy Grant, Jennifer Knapp, Tiffany Arbuckle, Dr. Roberto Che Espinoza, Ricky Braddy, Chris Hauser, Abbie Parker, Mike Maeshiro, Emily Tingley, and Hunter Kelly
Special thanks to Christie & Davey Bartholdson for the use of their east Nashville rental house, where this album was recorded over 3 days in February, 2025.